there’s this tendency in fandoms with predominantly or popular queer ships for shippers to apologize for them
there’s this perpetual caveat
"I ship John/Sherlock but I wouldn’t want it to actually happen"
"I love this ship but I know it’ll never happen"
"Just because I ship it doesn’t mean I expect it"
and it literally makes me want to vomit
because that is something that only queer shippers have to say, that is something that we have been reduced to
excusing ourselves and our existence like oh, I’m sorry
"ignore my fantasies, let me reassure you, they are nothing more than that"
and it is something that I have literally never seen a straight shipper feel the need to do.
you know what?
fuck that. my fantasies are more than fantasies. My fantasies are hopes and dreams and campaigns and will one day be realities because in the real world, in my real life, they already are.
I have the right to say I don’t just ship it, I WANT it, and I EXPECT it; I have the right to say that it will be canon with just as much confidence as the heterosexuals who trapped us in this world of self-doubt and self-loathing and starvation.
don’t tell me to couch or hedge my expectations with reality. I deny your reality and overrun it with my own, where my sexuality is treated as an equal possibility.
I don’t just ~think~ Daryl’s queer, or Sherlock is gay, and I won’t just say “oh, that’s my interpretation” and bow to my insignificance- I will fucking fight for my reality, and I will expect it, and I will say that that is canon if I believe it and I will demand it.
I will refuse to say “Rickyl won’t be canon” and “Johnlock won’t be canon” and any other queer ship won’t be canon
I will spit on your concept of reality and stomp on it and leave it in the dust and set my expectations, my bar, and my demands high
Heterosexuals teaching us to be satisfied with breadcrumbs is the old world.
We’re making our own now.